find myself in you
As I write across the pages of time
The pages unfold and mature like a delicate flower
Waiting to be read , touched, written
Blank stares and peculiar faces
Stare back at me.
Motionless in time and space
Their faces written with emotions and word
No one ever bares to speak.
And I sit here cautiously
Waiting for what is to come.
My mind racing a thousand thoughts
Their eyes saying a thousand stories
And I ponder, for what should there next
Motive might be.
For them to tell me a thousand lies
Or speak with honesty
I can’t bare to see their animate faces
There foolish nature makes my stomach shake.
How can one be so naive and thoughtless
So uncaring but glee
How can they live within lies and despair?
Tell me a story I want to hear
Make it in a remarkable way.
You tell the story and it unfolds before you
The honorable and the villainous
The just and unjust.
I want you to tell me a story that’s worth hearing
And that has truth in every letter, every word, in every syllable.
I gape back at them
With pure thoughts, with the truth, with strength
And wisdom.
My mind races,
As I look at their blank, deceiving stares
Their whispers and body language
I realize how these people with there blank stares are
And I cannot take it much longer.
I write across this page
Telling you that everything isn’t what it seems
And people aren’t who they seem to disguise themselves as.
With the pen in my hand as
I write on this page
I make sure everything is seen and foretold
Pretty little lairs, Pretty little thieves, Scams, Wills, and a
Mighty King and Queen.
Prepare yourself for the unforeseen for what you see isn’t all that it seems.
So I unraveled into a beautiful flower and I know
Now what the unforeseen holds
Will the peculiar faces with there blank stares grow up to do good?
The pages unfold
before me like a delicate flower.
I do hope the flower blooms.
i just found a friend in one of your lies
to treat me so nice, i cant believe my bones
when they say so many things
they tell me i am fine
believe me i, i try
ever so sweet you make this seem
the way things go
its not my fault
and i’ll miss, i’ll miss you so good
all of those nights that we lost our way back home
ever so sweet, you bake it in cakes for me
what you left behind
it hurts my teeth
bringing the past with the postcards you sent for me
every line it brings me right back down
cant you see the wall you build for me?
cant you see the wall you build for me?
cant you see the wall you build for me?
we’re not special
we’re not special
we’re not special
im not special
im not special
ever so sweet, you baked it in cakes for me
what you left behind
it hurts my teeth
bringing the past with the postcards you sent for me
every line it brings me right back down
THE EARLY NOVEMBER
Carl Sagan
terima kasih Allah atas badan ini, yang bisa merasakan dingin dan hangat
terima kasih Allah atas rambut ini, sehingga ibuku bisa membelainya
terima kasih Allah atas tangan ini, yang membantu pekerjaan ayahku disaat susah kelak
terima kasih Allah atas kaki ini, sehingga aku bisa berlari mengejar kereta disaat telat kuliah
terima kasih Allah atas hidung ini, yang bisa mencium aroma dedaunan segar di pagi hari
terima kasih Allah atas mulut ini, sehingga bisa menikmati makanan buatan diriku sendiri
terima kasih Allah atas kuping ini, yang bisa mendengar sahabatku yang dari jauh menghampiri
terima kasih Allah atas pundak ini, yang kelak nanti dia ada suatu orang yang akan bersendar disini
terima kasih Allah atas segalanya, kelak aku akan menemuimu suatu saat yang tepat nanti :)
They may grab away my money
Or break into my car
But they can’t take away my joy my fun
My music or my rights
They may steel away my bike
Or burn down my possession
Buy they can’t burn down my motion, devotion
And most of all my pride
You are the colours to all my paintings
You’re the best ever happened to me
You are the spirit to all my sentences
Of every song I sing
If I didn’t have you then
What will become of me?
If I had never met you girl
How would my life be?
Would I be the same?
If I’d been loving another name
Would I stay untamed
Would there be any aim?
So whom I will be..
She doesn’t drag around like fancy
And she is naked around her neck
As well as naked on her finger, arms or ears
Her skin can’t stand no germs
Tough cool down to earth
Genuine and one of a kind
She ain’t suffering from the “wanna-haves disease”
To ease a restless mind
You are the remedy for all my doubts
The best that I can get
You are the one I love to talk about
Even when my mood is bad
If I didn’t have you then
What will become of me?
If I had never met you girl
How would my life be?
Would I be the same?
If I’d been loving another name
Would I stay untamed
Would there be any aim?
So whom I will be..
Tell your dad im a good boy
and im not going to hurt you
Or take you away from his arms
Take your time to know me more
Im more that just your eyes can see
Let’s do this tonite
So tell your dad im a nice kid
Lay your arms around me
Stand so close beside me, dear
Take your time to know me more
Im more that just your eyes can see
Let’s do this tonite
Now is the time that I want you around
and im sick writing songs singing “wish you were here”
Now is the time that I need you around
So I’m making you a sad song
Just to let you know how it hurts
I found a way to get you now
But im affraid I cant keep up with your heart
and it comes to this conclution, I got you now
But im affraid I cant keep up with your heart
Lets take a walk around the town
Lets hit the bus and tour the city
Don’t let go my hand now
you know you look pretty
Lets get to your favourite restaurant
and eat til we’re fat and ugly
Please understand your daughter loves me more than anything
My good intention fails, i’m falling apart
I want you here
every time I feel so empty inside
I’m sick of this
I cant keep up with your heart.
-dchsdg-
Terbenam dalam jeratku bahwa kau telah melupakan hidupku
Hidupku yang berlalu tanpa kau tau
Mengakui angan ini saja sulit untuk dimengerti
Aku sudah menunggu ini selama 3 summer dan 3 winter
Selama itulah hidupku diambang risau berkepanjangan
Dan akhirnya aku tulis goresan ingatan tentang kau disini
Beranggapan bahwa kau telah menghindar ke luar dan tidak akan menggapku akan hidupku
Kau telah menemukan hidupmu disana
Aku telah berlayar membawa hidupku untuk masa depan
Ya, masa depan yang aku impikan bersamamu untuk melanjutkan hidup
Aku yakin kau akan melihat tulisan ini meskipun akan memandangku dengan terpurukku
Hidup ini serasa tak adil ketika aku melihatmu bejalan memadu kasih
Ya mau gimana, kau telah menemukan impian
Aku telah menemukan cita cita
Akankah kau beranjak darinya hanya untukku?
Teringat setahun yang lalu kau sempat menyemangatiku untuk mengejar mimpiku
Mimpiku? Aku tidak perlu itu
Mimpiku adalah kau
Seandainya hidupku mungkin telah berubah jangan salahkan aku
Aku hanya ingin mencari hidup yang kuingini
Hidup yang telah membuatku terkenang akan memori masa lalu yang senang
“Hanya kau yang bisa memastikan semua”
